murder and anger

This is my very first blog.  I want to share somethings from my life.  First of all although I have a valid Ph.D. in English language and literature and also can read very fast with great retention I am not iinto grammar and punctuation.  I always had a hard time with it in school I do it by ear my mother studied to be an English teacher rather you should say teacher of English and made sure by what she called constructive criticism that I spoke well.  In school it was always frustrating I think my brain wiring is off as I gave benn diagnosed and treated as bi polar ocd and adhd and had 36 ects in 1 year so please do not criticize my grammar and punctuation that is being mean content is always more important than form.  Where to begin well today I will write that my 50 ieth hs reunion is coming up.  I decided to go although I'm very hurt that when my daughter Morgan Kelly Cameron and only child was murdered March 1 2004 all my hs associate knew she died it was on the news and in all the papers none of them came nobody sent a card.  Also her father my ex-husband was in my class and I dod not like his pushy loud mouthed second wife.  For example at my daughters funeral repast she stood quaffing a beer with one foot on the chair looking like Jim Hill's mountain goat how crass.  She also said at my daughters graduation party some dopey story with the punch line I'm your mother ant that's why. I raised Morgan to think and to question. I am also thinking of starting a scene at this reunion. Why well her father only paid 15 dollars a week child support he dragged out his BA for 8 years I finally took him to court I was correct that I could reopen the case and I never studied law and his wife being an idiot came to the hearing wearing her mother in laws mink stole which I recognized how stupid if you're claiming poverty of course I won he had to up the weekly amount and reimburse me for half her tuition at the local county college which I had put on my credit card. Of course his stepdaughter went out of state to college lived in a dorm partied so much that now that she wants to get msw has to go back as undergrad to raise her cum also my daughter had to clean relatives toilets plus work other jobs to pay for school her father only had a relationship because I encouraged it.  In fact the 2 weeks because she was killed she was on a family vacation at the caymans on the plane on the way back she told him what nobody told me that Ron Daigle was abusing her and yet he let her leave the airport with Daigle who was picking her up took her home and murdered her. I also found out that she confided in her friends telling them not to tell me. This also eats me alive as if I knew your kid was up to no good and could be harmed I'd violate the confidence and tell you. I was on a scholarship to state university of new York at Binghamton for a doctorate and living up there except for summers and breaks thus I missed what was going on she hid it so well. If you read this far please google my name Sheila Massoni and title Morgan writing through grief and you can read my shortened prose poem book for free which won a contest and was published. I really resne the murder as I had a job offer in NJ after the Ph.D. but was so heavily medicated was forced into early retirement.  I think I have written enough for now I hate typing brain faster than fingers my mother always encouraged me to write she said publisher would get me trypist and a proof reader actually I'd like to pay barter someone to write my story. You could call me a pioneer feminist old school I went to a state teacher's college pregnant semester ended in June I delivered in July. I was huge. One Prof yelled from front of room I looked like I was having quints what a bitch Dr. Maria Rost was another threw me out of the student cafeteria in the dorm because I was wearing pants in 1967 I'll never forget the guys who were minoring in audio visual one day they came to my table with cake because they said they felt sorry for me seeing me eating a plate of lettuce for lunch